Fresh day...
Woked up this morning feeling kind of refreshing. Sat infront of the comp, did my usual Facebook gaming, watched a few anime and got cracking into cleaning my room. It is still not as clean as I hoped it to be, but it is definately better than before. Atleast my wardrobe and shelves are more organized. I'll leave the remaining on Monday then.
Evening time headed out with mum for dinner. Suggested to go over to Hougang Mall since I wanted to get some boxes to store all my unorganized junk. Ended not getting even one box but a new phone :D Finally, after weeks of consideration, I had brought the phone I've been aiming: Sony Ericsson Xpheria X10.
It wasn't planned at all but just happen, but I'm pleased about it. Was so occupied exploring the phone features that its already past midnight. Gonna have more fun with it tommorrow. :D
7:06 AM•Friday, April 23, 2010
Rust
When iron rust, its texture became rough...
When iron rust, its shine fades away...
When iron rust, its slowly weakens...
When iron rust, its weathered away...
It doesn't matter anymore...
It doesn't concerned anymore...
It is simply nothingness...
It is simply the end...
The good thing abt ending friendships are that it can be ended without doing anything, unlike love relationship where it is one responsible to tell the other.
From now on I shall only smile...
3:02 AM•Thursday, April 22, 2010
Who am I?
This week is pretty crappy. Seems to be down at every aspect. Took over a shift from a friend, but well since it was his birthday, plus the fact that I didn't get him anything this year. All is well.
Recently life has been work and nothing else. Spend pretty much of my off days cramping in my room. So many things to bother about, so many things that simply wish it will go away but life ain't that beautiful. At times felt like finding someone to talk to but couldn't.
Suddenly feel lost and terrible about myself. Who am I, I asked. There seems to be so many person in me where all contradict to one another. Suddenly, I thought back to the days when I was in poly. THAT me was so carefree, so straightforward, so daring. When I'm down or a complex problem faced, I'll self-reflect and no matter how I would get solve it even if the action taken was to be offensive, unreserved or embarrassing. If there was a problem with school, I would hit right to the root and seek help even it means that I'll appear stupid. If it was a problem with people, I would face them head on, talk to them out openly. Yet now, I couldn't. What happen to THAT me, why couldn't I bring it back. Why couldn't I revert to THAT me anymore.
-Life sux-
6:09 AM•Monday, April 19, 2010
Realization
Friends are hard to come by, friends are precious and friends are remarkable.
Don't we hear a lot of this positive impression when the word 'friend' came into mind. Recently, in fact for the past few months, I'm really doubting all those meaning. Perhaps I'm in denial that I've have good friends or perhaps I'm just a bad friend. But yet those around me simply comes and goes, leaving their footsteps. Friends, close friends, good friends are simply phrases.
I felt really neglected. In fact, not only that, there were even situation that let me realized that I've only been remembered due to hidden intention. I could really laugh at myself right now. So I guess this is it. Reality is at such and I shall accept it, embrace it.
Oh and welcome back to my blog.